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What appeals
in these words is not their surface piety, but their deeper urgency
and longing. In fact, they're filled with a yearning very close
to David's in his Psalm 63: "O God, thou art my God, I seek thee,
my soul thirsts for thee, my flesh faints for thee, as in a dry
and weary place where no water is."
David, who
prefigured Christ, wrote from the Judean wilderness. Augustine,
configured to Christ in the Sacrament of Orders, wrote from a different
but equally harsh kind of desert. Himself a bishop, Augustine lived
in a time of vast social change and sharp theological debate. And
he understood from personal experience that a bishop has no hope
at all to succeed as a pastor without immersing himself, losing
himself completely, in God.
In every eucharistic
sacrifice, the bishop acts in persona Christi – "in the person
of Christ" – and God made it so for a reason. Only Christ can accomplish
what the bishop is called to do. Vatican II, in its decree on the
office of bishops in the Church, enjoins bishops ". . . to teach
all peoples, to sanctify men in truth, and to give them spiritual
nourishment" (Christus Dominus, 2). No man can achieve this
on his own. So in the course of his vocation, the bishop either
becomes all Christ, or all straw. He can't give spiritual nourishment
to others unless he draws it from the intimate presence of God in
his own spiritual life. And that happens not just through a personal
habit of praying, but by allowing God to refashion him into a man
of prayer.
Every bishop
is called first to be a witness of Christ among his people, not
just through words – that's the easy part – but in the outline of
his entire life. We tend to dwell on the "active voice" when it
comes to the verbs describing the role of bishops: They teach, they
preach, they govern, they guide, they correct, console and encourage.
But above all, like a good father in any family, they must model
a surrender to the demands of love, to the people they love, and
to the God who is love.
A friend once
described the spiritual life in this way: Each of us is a child
with an instinct for beauty, and God, who is the beauty behind all
beauty, is the hidden presence we naturally sense and seek to touch.
Our lives are spent reaching for that beauty. But creation is so
very great, and we're so very small . . . until God stoops down
to provide us with the stool to stand on, so that we can stretch
out and touch His face.
The legs of
that stool are faith, hope and love -- and these are what I pray
God will fill me with as a spiritual father, as a pastor, as a bishop.
I will tell you why.
Faith gives
meaning. Man was made for a purpose; only faith provides it; and
without it the soul dies. Faith is not doctrines, though these are
essential. Faith is not sentiment, or knowledge, or law, though
all these play a vital role in our life of faith. Faith is the certitude
that God exists and loves us, because He has revealed Himself in
the one vocabulary which doesn't leave much room for disagreement:
His palpable presence in our lives. Bishops preach this good news.
But the irony, as C.S. Lewis once wrote, is that the hardest thing
to believe is that which we have just preached or defended to another.
Giving the truth away leaves an empty place in the heart. And the
only way to refill it, as Augustine did, is to turn back to God
and beg Him again for His presence. Bishops, for all the grace of
their office, are just as prone to formal faith and practical unbelief
as any Christian in the pew. And history might argue: maybe more
so. This is why I pray.
Hope gives
joy. Every bishop sooner than later discovers that his own skills
are too poor and his own sins too stubborn to be the man his people
need . . . unless the Gospel is true; unless Jesus Christ is real
and present in our lives. Hope sinks its roots in faith and flowers
in joy. At the end of the day, there are no unhappy saints. St.
Leo the Great, who became pope not long after Augustine's death
and in times no better, wrote that "there is no room for sadness
on this, the birthday of life." He was talking about Christmas,
but since Bethlehem, we are all living in the morning of Incarnation
every day. We're part of an endless birthday of life -- a birthday
which sets itself, in this world, against a culture of death. The
task of every believer, and above all a bishop, is to be an agent
of hope. This is why I pray.
Finally, love
gives life. All love is fruitful. Every person's life animated
by love is fertile and creates new life according to his or her
unique vocation – some in the flesh, some in the spirit, but new
life nonetheless. The better we love, the more we become the hands
of God, sculpting the new beauty of a new creation. Love draws us
into God Himself. And from our hearts, love calls out two other
virtues which depend on it: humility, which allows us to forget
ourselves and cherish the dignity of all God's children; and courage,
which enables us to live and speak the truth . . . not as a weapon,
but as a gift. It is not enough to speak the truth. We need, as
Paul wrote, to speak the truth in love. This is why I pray.
The spiritual
life of bishops must be driven by that hunger, thirst and desire
for God which Augustine captured with such power so long ago. When
we love with this intensity -- as the apostles did; as every bishop
is called to do -- so too will our people.
Such love changed
the world once. It can do so again. It will do so again.
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